This is an artist's blog with drawings and photographs as well as journal entries. Updated almost daily, I am a mixed media artist who works in fibers and beads, paper and paint, alcohol ink markers and bookmaking, prose and poetry.
In my drawings of women, as in my photographs of women, I am talking about and looking at myself. I see myself as a fairly short thin woman, and also look at parts of my body and am captured by the realization that I am fat. But am I so fat that I cannot fit into the first "fat" jeans I bought - size 18! That was astonishingly huge. I was always a size 10 - that was before everyone was a size 0. I never heard of size 0 when I was young and thin. I got down to 90 pounds and I still wore my size 10. So now that I am officially fat why can't I fit into those size 18 jeans???? How come 1X is bigger than XL? I am a 2X now but I am losing weight - SLOWLY. Some of my clothes are starting to fall off. That is good. Because I have so much back pain I am afraid to take them in. But I will keep trying to get into those size 18 jeans. Meanwhile I keep drawing what I look like inside my head.